Category: personal development

Meditation

Sometimes, like today, I find I can gather a real sense of comprehensive sovereignty with regard to my perspective through a meditation. This morning – half an hour ago – I was feeling clouded, not that I have seen some strong change. I sat down to meditate, caught myself planning a web server for a cooling fan for a data storage cabinet. Then I remembered Joe Rogan talking about ‘the land of distractions and bullshit’ or something like that. He said it takes him possibly 30 minutes to navigate this thought space in ‘the tank’. GissepeOnce I caught myself here, I allowed myself to feel safe and observe the weeds, glimpse my fears and allow thoughts to flow. I have observed many times since Ayahuasca that my thoughts sometimes take on a flowing sensation, like a vine twisting and moving, I guess if I were to describe it, it would be like a dynamic life like flow of I guess roots may be a good analogy.. but it’s just thoughts. then again everything physical made by physical humans started out as thought.

Ayahuasca Perspectives

One time on Ayahuasca I observed a new perspective. In my isolation my new perspective was that there was an entire world of suffering more than willing to have me as part of it.

“Don’t believe what you think” Something Tim said in January 2015. New perspectives are just that, they are new perspectives which you can’t see in that it is a perspective on the same thing; that thing being the present moment. It is a perspective on the present moment that you are not aware of. In that sense it is analogous to an ego death.

Un-specialised

What we are seeing with the proliferation of technology is that specialisation is losing its necessity. This came to me in the hardware sense but it also applies obviously in the information sense.. advanced hardware computer technology is very easily available to laymen. To me this points towards a more abundant reality, where integrity is more taken for granted. Where integral communication forms a basis for more connected interpersonal relatedness

Refining my new diet

The scale I bought for ~$15 has been coming in super handy, I can measure food to the gram basically which in my case is pretty important, being that currently I’ am so sensitive to sugar and carbs. It’s pretty cool that I can put a cup of tea on the scale, zero it and add 10g of coconut oil. Also I can do the same when eating, take a container of food and watch the scale go negative when I take food off.. super handy.
I’ve been having at least 15g of olive oil the past few days due to the whole MCT thing which I haven’t really looked into.
Also potatoes are a great source of carbs, so I’ve been having ~40g of sweet potato once every 1-2 hours the last couple days.. just to avoid an insulin spike.. which has been working. Yesterday I only had ~60g carbs the whole day, and no food after 90 mins of BJJ.. which was fine through till the morning -an I idea I pulled from a recent Primal Blueprint podcast.
To make the potato I bake it with onion and olive oil at ~200C for 1 hour and the result is really impressive.

Gabor Mate on Addiction

I was just watching a video on a UFO topic out of interest and they were talking about psychology and therapy. It reminded me of a talk by Gabor Mate I’ve seen.

It’s a really interesting talk, and I think everyone could benefit from Gabor’s work. He boils down addictive behaviour as serving the short-term at the expense of the long term. He has a really great perspective which I think is a great expression of clinical Psychology. He doesn’t have an ego of being a ‘therapist’ and holds a compassionate demeanour.

Where are the Carbs?!

So with this new Primal Diet thing, I haven’t got to reading any of The Primal Blueprint, although I’ve got the free sample on my kindle ready to go. I’ve been doing this diet for a few days, and I’ve noticed a few things. My crashes are more psychological than physiological, which is a giant relief. It’s very early days, we’ll see how this whole thing goes. Which means that while I might feel a little crappy, I don’t feel like my systems are off line, I guess the crashes are just smaller.. ehh we’ll see, but yeah its interesting to note that I haven’t had my afternoon crashes, I don’t want to go sleep around 4pm. I’m just chugging along at 45% energy, which leads me to today. It’s Monday and I wanted to go to the gym, but this diet isn’t giving me the energy. The idea of that was not possible, I knew I didn’t have the energy. I was looking at the food logs (initially using fitday.com but then myfitnesspal.com which I’m still not entirely satisfied with) I had done over the past few days and I was not getting any carbs.

I looked at this page on marksdailyapple.com which had the much talked about carb curve. I wasn’t getting my 100g. So I google primal carb sources and eyoo, on this (awesome) page I see that sweet and normal potatoes are going to give me ~20% carbs. fukn yes.
So, steamed chicken, broccoli, cauliflower and maybe a good half kilo of potatoes at 5pm and I here I am sitting after a mild session at the gym.

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New diet (marked mood and energy results)

So around last Wednesday I decided to give this Primal Diet thing a go.

Seems pretty interesting to me, especially since my Doctor told me I have 2 out of the 3 gluten intolerance genes. When I first listened to this episode I was hesitant, I was following along until he said giving up all grains. Hold the phone, jettison the baby and bathwater. I love my grains. Every day I would have a huge bowl of oats as well as rice for lunch and dinner. I’d just bought Tupperware for both these grains. I mean come on. Anyway for whatever reason I tried to give it a go, I started reading the new book on my kindle, which I subsequently returned since The Primal Blueprint was more what I wanted (the new one focuses on health and fitness for endurance.. I just want the diet). So the reason I wanted to start the diet is basically the results I was really hoping for. I’m actually super happy with the results. I had a bit of a read on marksdailyapple.com which basically had everything I wanted from the book.

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