Category: personal development

dealing with stomach parasites

Been having some stomach problems since the start of the year, so got my digestive system tested. The reason for the test was actually acute sugar sensitivity, where a small amount of sugar, say 2 teaspoons hiding in a nut ‘health bar’ would make me feel crap within a couple minutes. I know most of the serotonin in the body is produced in the stomach so I figured this may have something to do with it. One of the problems detected was Blastocystis which is a stomach parasite. I was prescribed antibiotics which I held off from for a couple weeks while I tried natural methods (Paracea, garlic 3 times a day and 3 drops of MMS hourly for 8 hrs a day for a few days and various probiotics). This didn’t seem to solve the problem so I went with the antibiotics. Just finished that yesterday but still noticing a crash towards the end of the day. So today I watched this video which was all like hey Goji is the greatest thing ever. I stumbled upon it because a natropath I saw recently commented on how my red blood cells were stuck together, so I was looking into that. Seems they are talking about Goji berries, luckily I found some at my local supermarket basically straight away. This lead me back to this guy, who was the reason I have Chaga mushroom powder sitting in my room, which is another thing I need to look into preparing.

Gobi berries cost $7 for 150g at Coles so I think I’ll be snacking on these for a while, so addictive.  I wanted to know a good dose, in this study they took 120ml for a fortnight… although they were taking this stuff and I’m not sure of the potency. I just had a bunch of yoghurt (first time having sugar in a while actually) as well as some  Goji berries and I feel more energised… hmm.. anyway. Will be interesting to experiment with this in the afternoon tomorrow…

Bjj tonight

learned a sweep from closed guard.

Break their posture by pulling their arm up, and pulling them down with your legs (closed guard). Grab a deep underhook in their armpit and pull it tight. You want to pull that arm and roll them onto their back. So with the free arm grab under their knee and shift away so they fall into the space you make, rolling onto mount.

Andy showed me some stuff after class. Guard pass.

Put your knee into their butt and rotate away, this will allow me to break their guard.

Reminder of setting the kimora from a fake hip bump sweep, or doing both

“The Great Porn Experiment”

(this one is pretty personal).. In my continuing search for fulfillment, I found the video “The Great Porn Experiment”. This video really may have uncovered some habits out of alignment with my true self. I’ve been looking through various modalities of personal development and spirituality for the past few years and this is one area I hadn’t really looked into as problematic. Last year I saw a video of a talk with Gabor Mate about addiction which basically talked about addiction being choosing a short term gain at the expense of the long term (excellent video). I’ve cut out alcohol, due to bad hangovers and not enjoying the experience of being drunk. Been eating healthy and cut out gluten – to avoid inflammation n stuff which I didn’t really previously believe. I’ve even been all the way over to Peru to drink Ayahuasca to heal unconscious unprocessed trauma, which brings me to the present. This ‘porn experiment’ thing ties into some things which Ayahuasca showed me.. all revolving around sexual identity. My ability to tie it to something in my control surrounds testosterone and hormone levels. After returning from Peru I was surprised when I had some emotional crashes. By changing various habits, I was able to discern that hormone levels played a very strong role in this complex dynamic of my mood – to the point of extending beyond simply a crappy mood. It was around this time through various searching I found the above mentioned video. The video talks about depression and things of similar caliber being eased with this whole ‘nofap’ experiment.
The yourbrainonporn.com website has a page What benefits do people see as they reboot? (reboot meaning resetting neural pathways by not feeding a porn addiction)
Benefits sited include:
-No Brain Fog
-More Confidence/Less Social Anxiety
-More Energy/Focus

Those sound like things I definitely want to have running smoothly. Reiterating: hormone levels play a very strong role in this complex dynamic of my mood. The website has a lot of info regarding neuroscience n stuff like that – don’t care so much about the scientific justifications etc – just want to know about what they call ‘rebooting‘ and if/how it works. So Porn and Fapping are two different things. The site talks about how over stimulus with porn creates a brain pathway ‘rut’ – associated with the addictive behavior and it’s unwanted modification of normal functioning. The basic rule shown is “No artificial sexual stimulation during your reboot.” The second part asks “To masturbate, or not to masturbate, that is the question” – where ‘rebooting’ is different for each person in this case… I found discovering the role hormones played in my mood is very dramatic, so this info would appear to include me in the case study of all college students in the ‘use porn’ category (as opposed to the none in the ‘no porn’ category)…

I’ve also received some supplements which I was hoping would also help (Maca and Mucuna Pruriens) and I’m still looking into the correct use and preparation of them (from amazon customer reviews)

In summary: It seems like I hijacked my own mind by cheating my brains understanding of potential mates. Perhaps porn short circuits the very seed of the system of male confidence… literally :/