Month: April 2016

mad-beatsMyon @ Shane 54 – Not A Lot Left

I like this song mainly due to the repeated line in it.. Maybe one of the things I like about electronic music is it fits my kind of not-Status-quo tastes..

Review: The Act of Killing

It doesn’t help that I watched this on a day where I feel crap. So I guess I overloaded my adrenals this morning with a coffee :/ I had 60 grams of carbs in the form of baked potatoes over lunch going with the theme of not caring (daily total 114 carbs, 154 protein and 161 fat, with dinner before 5.. fasting time). I watched ‘The Act of Killing’ which the Director Josh Oppenheimer describes as showing the underbelly of the society which we live in. It’s interesting how it shows the emotional struggle of the main character, basically a genocidal serial killer. Interesting as I think his struggle forms the individual version of the struggle we see in capitalism; confused in it’s malignant nature.

The film remind me of the saying ‘play with pigs and you’ll get dirty’. Anyway, after reading several of Stan Grofs books, I’m optimistic about the cyclical nature of death and rebirth on a collective scale – in the polarised sense that you can’t know light without darkness.

clarity and optimism (cliché)

Primal_DietMy sleep was ok last night; not perfect but ehh.

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Well actually the ‘Z score’ was 99.. I guess I did get back to sleep after waking at 7. This is unheard of for me… When I woke at midnight I thought it was morning so eh

I have to say I’m pretty happy with this diet. I wasn’t super hungry this morning, after ~15 hours without food, including a good Bjj session. This possibly points to ketosis, which is great. Smooth energy so far today, and feel like a clarity is germinating in my perspective; almost to the point where someone might ask what I was on. We’ll see where this leads.

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30g of each of the nuts I’m enjoying. good stuffs k (~1 daily supply)

Bjj Thursday – what is this flow

I had a feeling today would be ok. I meditated for half an hour before heading in; once again, my flow was like never before. I was thinking on the way home; while listening to the risky business podcast talking about exploits, how by challenging myself with the personal story which makes up the dynamic expression of my life; by having a challenge in balance; I find almost an idea of being behind the curtain; thats a very rare perspective.

=QMChap2_Page_02_Image_0001As I swept one of the guys and took mount, I said ‘this is weird’, how I was able to have patience and simply walk through open doors. This confusing dynamic makes up the observations I have been having during meditation; which is actually really fun. I noted today during meditation that there wasn’t a moment of “AAgghh boring cmon lets get on with it; what’s next.”

Perhaps the Primal diet is to thank for this cortisol/adrenal/thyroid balance. I’m not sure; I certainly feel the ‘carb crash’ has a causal mood response, so I’m going with it.

I left early, as I don’t want exhaust myself, that would would suck. I’m really hoping for a good shift on Saturday. I’m acting in all the ways I can think to maintain relative balance.

Today I didn’t learn any new moves, just pulled up sweeps from memory and enacted them. Excellent session. No more carbs/protein today, despite hunger.. what fats can I eat?

EDIT: I’m not really that hungry (well if I ate I would definitely trigger it. I think I’m in ketosis!). I feel I should not eat an avocado, but some walnuts and macadamias sound good. That will be over 14 hours of fasting.. 😀

Tired Bjj Tuesday

Low energy Bjj session which was none the less beneficial.

  • Learned an interesting sweep from guard.
    From guard control one of their hands on my stomach.
    This can be swept across their body and then wrap my leg over their head into an arm bar. Important to have a good amount of angle to their torso, ideally right angle.
    Also possible to make a sweep. Before throwing my leg up and over, I can grab their leg with my free arm and sweep them. I should definitely practice this.
  • Defending standing back control.
    They wrap their arms low around your waist, giving them the option to lift you for a throw/take down.
    You drop your weight first, making life super difficult for them.
    Grab both their arms and wrap a leg around their leg, after dropping.
    Set up a kimora. Grab one of their arms with my opposite arm, say their right with my left. Move my right arm around behind their elbow. Dig my left thumb behind their arm, while moving back and forth to create space for my right arm to come behind theirs. Wrap my right hand onto my left wrist, setting up a kimora. Maintaining the grip while dropping. Once they let go, rotate around and sit down. I can pull them over my head while throwing their butt with my leg between their legs. Once they roll over, it is possible for me to take side control and kimora them. putting a leg over their head if need be.

Ketosis, low carb and fasting

I was keeping my carb intake pretty dam low for around the last week, between 50 and 100g per day (going off the food nutrition data I’ve been using).. aand I don’t think I was getting the required carbs, I’m going for 100 per day now, which I think will provide better satiation. I have been feeling low energy for the last few days which I’m not super happy about, I think I trained too hard last week and stressed my body too much, resulting in a cold and a cold sore…
I’ve stopped coffee, just 1 black tea in the morning = less cortisol stress from caffeine. No caffeine after 2 pm.. Less green tea as well since that is a stressor. I think the build towards being a ‘fat burning beast’ needs to be a slower one.

This is an interesting link on fasting, something to look into possibly, extending my fast from 11 hours daily around my sleep cycle to perhaps up to 24 as an experiment, when I already feel good as a starting point.

Just stumbled on this… The Low Carb Flu