mad-beatsMyon @ Shane 54 – Not A Lot Left

I like this song mainly due to the repeated line in it.. Maybe one of the things I like about electronic music is it fits my kind of not-Status-quo tastes..

Review: The Act of Killing

It doesn’t help that I watched this on a day where I feel crap. So I guess I overloaded my adrenals this morning with a coffee :/ I had 60 grams of carbs in the form of baked potatoes over lunch going with the theme of not caring (daily total 114 carbs, 154 protein and 161 fat, with dinner before 5.. fasting time). I watched ‘The Act of Killing’ which the Director Josh Oppenheimer describes as showing the underbelly of the society which we live in. It’s interesting how it shows the emotional struggle of the main character, basically a genocidal serial killer. Interesting as I think his struggle forms the individual version of the struggle we see in capitalism; confused in it’s malignant nature.

The film remind me of the saying ‘play with pigs and you’ll get dirty’. Anyway, after reading several of Stan Grofs books, I’m optimistic about the cyclical nature of death and rebirth on a collective scale – in the polarised sense that you can’t know light without darkness.

clarity and optimism (cliché)

Primal_DietMy sleep was ok last night; not perfect but ehh.

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Well actually the ‘Z score’ was 99.. I guess I did get back to sleep after waking at 7. This is unheard of for me… When I woke at midnight I thought it was morning so eh

I have to say I’m pretty happy with this diet. I wasn’t super hungry this morning, after ~15 hours without food, including a good Bjj session. This possibly points to ketosis, which is great. Smooth energy so far today, and feel like a clarity is germinating in my perspective; almost to the point where someone might ask what I was on. We’ll see where this leads.

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30g of each of the nuts I’m enjoying. good stuffs k (~1 daily supply)

Ketosis, low carb and fasting

I was keeping my carb intake pretty dam low for around the last week, between 50 and 100g per day (going off the food nutrition data I’ve been using).. aand I don’t think I was getting the required carbs, I’m going for 100 per day now, which I think will provide better satiation. I have been feeling low energy for the last few days which I’m not super happy about, I think I trained too hard last week and stressed my body too much, resulting in a cold and a cold sore…
I’ve stopped coffee, just 1 black tea in the morning = less cortisol stress from caffeine. No caffeine after 2 pm.. Less green tea as well since that is a stressor. I think the build towards being a ‘fat burning beast’ needs to be a slower one.

This is an interesting link on fasting, something to look into possibly, extending my fast from 11 hours daily around my sleep cycle to perhaps up to 24 as an experiment, when I already feel good as a starting point.

Just stumbled on this… The Low Carb Flu

Primal Blueprint Podcast #114 – Adrenal Fatigue & Cortisol issues

Just thought I would give this podcast a go and it has so far given me two things which may prove to be profound. The first was eating carbs before an evening workout then none after; coercing the body to become more efficient with protein and fat, which showed results for athletes. The Second I have linked below and relates to Adrenal Fatigue & Cortisol issues.

I have be having a really acute sugar sensitivity for quite a while. I have slowly been figuring this out which lead me to the Primal diet after watching Mark Sisson’s episode of JRE. Initially I lost interest as soon as he said no grains, but after mood crashes at inopportune times I needed to try something new. So I wondered if there was a primal podcast; there is and this episode I think I have listened to for probably 3 times it’s length. I was looking for the the part of what to do about adrenal fatigue; which is the start point of the video.
They talk about Vitamin C, B, D and ‘full spectrum salt’… Which I started yesterday. I might go to the doctors later today and see if I can get some tests done, specifically:
  • Vitamin D
  • Thyroid
  • Cortisol
  • blood glucose

Would be interesting to see how these change after a week, since I started Vitamin B and salt yesterday and D a few days ago.

Also may need to look into DHEA and D12 levels (or something)…

Meditation

Sometimes, like today, I find I can gather a real sense of comprehensive sovereignty with regard to my perspective through a meditation. This morning – half an hour ago – I was feeling clouded, not that I have seen some strong change. I sat down to meditate, caught myself planning a web server for a cooling fan for a data storage cabinet. Then I remembered Joe Rogan talking about ‘the land of distractions and bullshit’ or something like that. He said it takes him possibly 30 minutes to navigate this thought space in ‘the tank’. GissepeOnce I caught myself here, I allowed myself to feel safe and observe the weeds, glimpse my fears and allow thoughts to flow. I have observed many times since Ayahuasca that my thoughts sometimes take on a flowing sensation, like a vine twisting and moving, I guess if I were to describe it, it would be like a dynamic life like flow of I guess roots may be a good analogy.. but it’s just thoughts. then again everything physical made by physical humans started out as thought.